When was the last time I felt at peace? Some days I feel it all day long others it seems like it will never come again. I have been searching for a peace for my brother Ian. I feel this constant need to find an afterlife, the knowledge that he is okay, and enjoying his time wherever he is now. For some reason l know that he is mourning us too. I also feel that he is somewhere doing his thing and loving it, not feeling any pain, only enjoying his new life.
I just started the book The 5 people You’ll Meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom. So far this book had helped me gain some perspective and find something to believe in. I guess more than anything I am needing something to believe in. I have a few passage that really speak to me.
“Your voice will come. We all go through the same things. You cannot talk with you first arrive.” He smiled. “It helps you listen.” - i love this one...mostly for myself. A reminder to listen.
“That there are no random acts. That we are all connected. That you can no more separate one life from another than you can separate a breeze from the wind.”
“Fairness,” he said, “does not govern life and death. If it did, no good person would ever die young.”
“Strangers,” the Blue Man said, “are just family you have yet to come to know.”
“No life is a waste, the only time we waste is the time we spend thinking we are alone.”
I feel inspired and the need to live my life to the fullest. To experience as much as I can while I am here, in this life, on this earth, good, bad, easy, hard, joy, love, and sadness. I know I have experienced enough sadness and now I must fill my time with joy and love. I hope that those who left this earth too soon, and those that did not get to experience things I am, can do so through me.
